You can’t use your money to replace your part in being their for your child emotionally and physically. Yes, I am aware that money is a big part in raising a child but does that mean you can use that to not see your child as often as you should? Just because you can give more money to him than I can doesn’t make you the better parent. I’ve asked you countless times to buy him clothes, vitamin and all the important things that he needs but you never did. And yet every time you come over to my house to see him, you show up with new clothes? And you say you’re capable of being a parent? If you can’t do the simple task, how are you gonna tell me to trust you alone with him?
It’s funny because you have so many people fooled that you’re such a great dad while everyone else is thinking that I’m the “bad guy” because I suppose, I’m not letting you “see” your son. It’s funny just because you have tons of pictures with him it automatically makes you a great parent to people. What about me, where does that leave me? What recognition to I get? Nothing, right? I’m the one that has to get up every 2-3 hours every night to change his diaper, feed, etc. and what do you get to do? Sleep. Please don’t use your job as an excuse to not see your son. How about instead of putting so much effort in fixing your broken relationship with your ex, and going out why don’t you dedicate it to see your son? Don’t come to my house and complain that you’re tired from work but the second you leave you meet up with friends. You can’t just choose when to be a parent. We got ourselves in this situation. We’re parents full time now. Why is that with you, you can turn being a parent on and off. I don’t get to make that choice of when I can and can’t be a parent to him. I do it full time. Not because I’m forced to but because I want to. Because I know he needs me.
I was planning on going to school to visit some friends and talk to my teacher and what do we know, it starts to fucking rain. Ugh, I’m so annoyed right now -.-‘
So, come to think of it I think I can be a great cook. I mean, if I really took the time and made the effort LOL. I use to bake a lot when I was younger with my grandma and I think I should get back to that.
Others leave a mark and no matter what you do you can never forget about them.
… not a good idea. LOL. I’m trying to not be loud but it’s not working. Hopefully my mom doesn’t wake up yells at me. The smell’s probably going all the way upstairs but oh well.
Like seriously, shut the fuck up. I’m sorry I messed up during the first 3 months. I’m sorry that I didn’t have the typical symptoms of a pregnant girl. The only thing my friends noticed about me was that my boobs were getting bigger and a lot more squishy(yeah, squishy). Don’t make it seem like I’m the worse mom just because of this. The second I found out I was pregnant I didn’t do anything but take good care of myself and the baby. I went to every single prenatal classes and doctors appointment. I took my vitamins and did whatever the doctors and nurses told/advice me to do. So how the fuck are you gonna go and open your mouth saying I’m a bad mom? I thank God every day that my baby was born normal with no complications. I take good care of my baby. He’s growing up well and he hasn’t been sick once. I take him to every doctors appointment and visits. So fuck you for telling me I’m the worse mom.
The fact that I have to push myself to do work and stay on track. I always feel like putting it aside and do something else but I know I can’t. It makes it worse cause I have regular school soon and it’s gonna be a lot harder. Four classes online and four more courses in school PLUS taking care of my little one… um, tell me where my sleep gets in the picture, LOL. I barely sleep now so I’m probably never going to sleep once I start regular school. My summer’s gonna wack again for the 3rd time cause I’m taking whatever courses I can’t take this school year in the summer haha. Oh well, might as well finish all my schooling.
About to fold my clothes, Baby J’s clothes, wash the dishes, and clean my room YAY! LOL
Currently munching on sticky rice, spring rolls and grapes.
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